Annual Affair Chapter 8

Chapter 8

Nora clung to him as her body shuddered around him. She felt him nuzzle her face. She smiled up at him.

“You okay Red.”
She pulled his face to her kissing him.

“I am more than okay, that was amazing.”

Bo’s hand wandered up and down her leg kissing her slowly. She ran her hands across his back. He felt so wonderful. She looked over to the corner of the room, their daughter was still asleep. She pulled back running her thumbs across his lips. Their eyes meet. She felt so loved.

“Bo I think it’s time.”
He nuzzled her.

“Time? For what?”
She took a deep breath.

“For us to either be together all the time or stop the once a year meeting.”
Nora felt him stop moving. He got off of her and leaned against the headboard.

“Where is coming from?”
Nora looked at their daughter.

“Bo we have two children. We love each other so much. I know I hurt you and I hate myself for hurting you. For our children’s sake it needs to be all or nothing. I don’t want to hurt them. Matthew is already so confused about the baby. Just think of the questions he’ll have when he finds out how babies are made. Rory is going to have the same questions. And what if it happens again? What if I get pregnant again? Rory was an accident, she happened because I lost my memories therefore didn’t know I needed to be on birth control on June 1st.”

She took a deep breath and look over at him. He was frowning, his eyes on Rory.

“So you don’t want this anymore?”
“I want more. The past four years this has been my favorite day of the year. It is the one day of the year I feel like myself. I love you so much Bo and I know you are still in pain over Sam. But I deserve more, our children deserve more.”
Bo didn’t talk he got out of the bed and walked to Rory and picked her up. He rocked her as he went over to the window. He cuddled and kissed her. Nora could see their daughter cuddle down in her fathers strong arms.

The fear she had been pushing back was fighting its way to the surface the longer he said nothing.

“Bo?”
He looked at her and sighed.

“I love you Red. You know I do.” His body continued to sway their daughter “I don’t want to lose you.”
She smiled.

“I don’t want to lose you either.”
“But.” Her heart fell and the tears threatened to escape “I don’t know if I can do the all or nothing. Red sometimes when I see you in town I want to run to you and other times I feel my heart being ripped out. I am still in so much pain over Sam, even after all these years.” Nora sniffed as the tears fell. “Our children do deserve more. I am just so afraid they’ll know, they’ll know I can’t let go of the pain. That I still feel like I can’t trust you with my heart.”
Bo walked over to the car seat and place Rory back in the seat. He walked over to her and took her hands kissing them gently.

“I am sorry Red, but I can’t.”
She began to sob. Bo pulled her to him and held her tight.

“I am sorry Red, I am so sorry. I love you.”

Bo began to let her go. She grabbed him. He kissed her.

“Don’t go.”
“I think it is for the best Red.” He kissed her again. He grabbed his clothes and kissed their daughter one last time. He stopped by the door. “I wish it could be different Red. I really do. I will always love you.”
He looked at her one last time and left.

Nora’s heart broke in half as she sobbed in their bed.