Drunken Catharsis Chapter 8

Chapter 8

Nora got Matthew out of the room without him knowing his father was in her bedroom. She took a deep breath and opened her door. He was still asleep. She put the coffee down and gently shook him. Bo groaned.

“Leave me.”
“No, you and I need to talk. Talk while both of us are sober and there is no one else around.”

Bo opened his eyes slightly and looked at in confusion.

“Nora?”
“Here I got you coffee.”
Bo took the coffee and looked around.

“What am I doing here?”
Nora rolled her eyes and sat in chair next to the bed.

“You got drunk and decided to sneak in and watch me sleep.”
Bo put his hand on his face as groaned.

“Do you remember what you said to me last night?”
Bo shook his head.

“No, was it bad?”
“Yes.”

“Sorry.”
Nora sighed.

“What is going on Bo?”
“I love you.” Nora’s breath caught in her throat. “That night Nora, I may have been drunk, but I wasn’t saying it just to get you in bed. I love you. I am sorry it happened like that, I have been fighting my feelings for a long time. When you started to date Clint, I fought them harder. I even turned to Lindsay of all people. I saw you on the couch, you looked so beautiful. I just needed to hold you. Then in the morning you were in my arms, you let me make love to you again. I thought you knew. Then when you told Clint you thought it was a dream, it hurt.”

“I didn’t remember Bo, not until later that night.”
Bo looked at her.

“And you thought I told you I loved you to get you to sleep with me.”
“Yes.”
Bo was silent for a long time.

“I’m sorry. I am sorry I ever made you feel like that. I am sorry that my previous actions made you believe I’d use you like that.”

“Bo, I..I don’t know what to think. You say you love me, but only seem to come to me when you're drunk.”
Bo covered his face.

“I can’t believe I did that last night. I swear it wasn’t my intentions. I was just angry and I drank.”

“And you sought me out for sex again.”
Bo cringed.

“I tried to get you in bed again?”
She just nodded. Bo looked at his hands.

“sorry.”
“Where does this leave us Bo?”
He shook his head.

“I don’t know Red. I know I love you and I know being with you that night and morning was amazing. But I have a feeling I don’t have your trust or love.”

“Of course I love you. I never stopped.” Bo looked up in shock. “But you are right, you do not have my trust. You have burned me to many times Bo. Every time I let you in you crush my heart, I can’t do that again Bo. If you don’t really love me, tell me now and I’ll let you go, I can’t take the pain of letting you in my heart only to have you toss me to the side.”
“I love you Nora.”
“What if things get hard? Will you do what you always do? Find some woman with no complications and leave me behind? This won’t be easy Bo.”

“Red, I won’t do that.”
“How do I know that? You’ve done it so many times.”
Bo  got up from the bed and moved over to her.

“Red I admit I have run to other women, women who really meant nothing to me and wouldn’t challenge me, when I got scared.”
“And if you get scared again.”
Bo knelled in front of her.

“I promise I’m an in this for the long run. If I get scared I’ll come to you, I will not run away. I know you don’t trust me, but please give me one more chance.”
Nora couldn’t look at him. She didn’t know if her heart could take trusting him again. Bo gently placed her face into his hands turning her so she had to look at him.

“Please Red. Please let me love you.”
Nora felt her tears starting.

“If you hurt me again Bo, I will cut you out of my life. I mean it.”
Bo leaned in a kissed her.

“If I hurt you again, I will never forgive myself.”
She looked into his eyes.

“So, what do we do from here?”
Bo sat back.

“I don’t know. Maybe just a date?”

“I don’t want Matthew to know about this, I don’t want him to get his hopes up.”
Bo looked down and nodded.

“I will do whatever you want.”

She sighed.

“So what if we go out tonight when Matthew is at practice.”

Bo looked up again with a huge smile.

“I’d love that.”
She stood.

“I got to get to work.”
“I’ll come and get you afterward?”
She smiled and gave him a small kiss.

“I can’t wait.”